Lolita Love

Throughout it all I am nothing but this
Paper-thin skin and ink splattered lips
I watch distantly through hazy eyes
From the proffered wine I take a sip

Like parchment pages printed fate
Torment and anger reside
I never love I lust I hate
As the sea turns into tide

Because I feel like Lolita
From the pages of the book
My coaxes, innocence divine
A smile was all it took
You see you see you see me
As I glance the other way
You think that you can tame me
But I’m just an actress in this play

Fierce forbidden hateful kisses
and a touch so close so far
Rough sandpaper scrapes my throat
I add it to my scars

I walk by the light of the moon
Forever yearning for the sun
The light is too bright too real
As I wait for stars to come

You say too old too young
I say it’s nothing to me
The soul the heart the mind
Is what cannot be seen to see

I dance on this merry-go-round
called life, it’s all a twisted song
A chessboard full of tricks and turns
No Queen will you find here, just a pawn

So touch me one last time
Before you turn away
The hunter’s prey I am, in kind
And as always, here to stay.

Breezy Brignall 2012